Sunday, 23 September 2018

You gonna break my heart, Covey?

Oh hi there. It's me. Long time no see. Hope you're doing well.

So I've been away awhile, and while I could say I was just busy with work (which is absolutely true, I have been super busy with work), I've also been trying to figure out what to do with my life. There was a point where I was pretty much having an existential crisis every day, and it didn't really make for good blog material.

I've kind of come to a decision, and that decision is to go back to university to study a degree I am actually interested in.

You may remember me blogging through my first degree (you definitely won't remember) but pretty much from the first year of studying Law, I knew I didn't really want to be lawyer.

I think we pick the subjects which determine our entire future far too young. I picked my A-levels at age sixteen, and while I'm sure many sixteen year olds are motivated and have a good head on their shoulders, I was an idiot at sixteen. I had no idea what I wanted, I was basically told to do the subjects I was naturally good at, so that's what I did.

I have regretted it ever since. I have always regretted not pursuing Maths and Physics, and because I didn't have the A-levels, my entire future was restricted.

I have been thinking about this for years. I considered doing an Open University degree, I toyed with teaching myself Maths and Physics A-levels, I thought about doing an Access to Higher Education course.

Every time I chickened out, thinking that I've been out of education too long, I'm not good enough, I won't be able to cope etc. etc.

This year though, I just decided to take the plunge. I applied to a uni through Clearing as a mature student. I got in on a foundation year (which means you cover A-levels basically in year 0 before moving to year 1 which is the normal start of a BSc). My course starts tomorrow.

I am terrified. I am really terrified. As this is my second degree, I am self-funding, which means I am spending all my savings to do this. The consequences of failure are severe.

I also need to find a part-time job asap but it hasn't been easy since I'm still serving my notice period at my old job (if anyone is looking to hire a social media person who specialises in paid social but also has marketing, e-commerce and merchandising experience, hit me up). There's also the fact that I'll probably be the oldest person in my classes, I've been out of education for so long and I'm so rusty - what if I just can't do it? What if this was a terrible life choice?

I don't know what's going to happen. I know what I want, but whether I can achieve it is a whole other story. But that is the decision I've made, and while it's a bit of a crazy (and bloody expensive) one, I honestly think that if I don't even try, I'll always live in regret.

So this is my life now. I'm back to being a broke student again. Back to studying and timetables and exams, after years of being a working professional. It's going to be a big change, and I've basically been trying not to think about it, mostly by re-watching To All the Boys I've Loved Before on Netflix. I've seen it four times, I'm not even joking, it is a masterpiece. Peter Kavinsky? Peter Kavinsky. Plus the beautiful cinematography, Lara Jean's freaking bedroom, Lara Jean's freaking outfits, KITTY, the writing, the acting, the soundtrack - it's near perfect, I tell you, and I am really not the kind of person who says that often. If you haven't seen it (why haven't you seen it? Is it because once you watch it no other romantic comedy will ever again live up to the high expectations this film has created?), go watch it, because the only thing that will disappoint you is that true life is nowhere near as good as this film.

I don't know where my life will end up, whether this degree will be the best or worst decision I've ever made. Much like Lara Jean, I'm kind of just going for it and hoping for the best.

I'm sure I'll blog about it, I have plans (I always have plans). So for now, goodbye, and I'll see you soon. Maybe a year from now I'll be writing another blog post where I have my life figured out (but probably not).

Wednesday, 5 September 2018

Three Mini Reviews

This Mortal Coil (This Mortal Coil #1) by Emily Suvada
Publisher: Penguin
Released: 2nd November 2017
My Rating: 3 stars out of 5
Find it on Goodreads
When a lone soldier, Cole, arrives with news of Lachlan Agatta's death, all hope seems lost for Catarina. Her father was the world's leading geneticist, and humanity's best hope of beating a devastating virus. Then, hidden beneath Cole's genehacked enhancements she finds a message of hope: Lachlan created a vaccine.

Only she can find and decrypt it, if she can unravel the clues he left for her. The closer she gets, the more she finds herself at risk from Cartaxus, a shadowy organization with a stranglehold on the world's genetic tech. But it's too late to turn back.


There are three billion lives at stake, two people who can save them, and one final secret that Cat must unlock. A secret that will change everything.
(from Goodreads)

This Mortal Coil had a great premise but there were a few things throughout that stopped this from being more than a three-star book for me.

While I found the story really interesting and engaging (and unpredictable on top of that!), I was confused a lot of the time. That could have just been me reading too fast to really grasp what was going on, as is often the case, but even parts which I went back to reread were a bit unclear, and there was a lot that I felt was never explained.

I also wasn’t a huge fan of Cole and as I’m all about character-driven plots, it made it difficult for me to really care what was happening where he was involved.

I did really like Cat – it couldn’t have been easy for her to realise she’d been lied to over and over again. I was also really concerned this book was going to be standalone (so many things unresolved!) but thankfully, it’s going to be a trilogy, and I will be continuing on with it. Though hopefully in the next book, the phrase “my darling girl” won’t be dropped about a hundred times…

Overall, I did enjoy this book and would pick up the sequel.


The Cruel Prince (The Folk of the Air #1) by Holly Black
Publisher: Hot Key Books
Released: 2nd January 2018
My Rating: 3 stars out of 5
Find it on Goodreads
Jude was seven years old when her parents were murdered and she and her two sisters were stolen away to live in the treacherous High Court of Faerie. Ten years later, Jude wants nothing more than to belong there, despite her mortality. But many of the fey despise humans. Especially Prince Cardan, the youngest and wickedest son of the High King.
To win a place at the Court, she must defy him–and face the consequences.

In doing so, she becomes embroiled in palace intrigues and deceptions, discovering her own capacity for bloodshed. But as civil war threatens to drown the Courts of Faerie in violence, Jude will need to risk her life in a dangerous alliance to save her sisters, and Faerie itself.
(from Goodreads)

The reason behind this rating is Cardan. I didn’t like him. I get what Holly Black was going for and I know he had a secret terrible life and all that, but trying to excuse his appalling behaviour in that way just didn’t cut it for me. It’s going to take a lot more than what we got in this book to change my mind about him, because at this point, I kind of sort of hate him.

Cardan aside, I did enjoy the rest of this book. It was very dark and unforgiving (how messed up is to live with the man who killed your biological father?!), which isn’t unusual for Holly Black, and you’ve got to give it to her for the world-building, which was great. I also really enjoyed the family dynamic between the sisters and while I often questioned Jude’s decisions (why Jude, why), I was always interested to see how she would deal with the situations she ended up in. While there were a few parts I saw coming, I am still very intrigued to see how things unravel after that ending.

Overall, this was an enjoyable read. I’m dithering a bit on whether to pick up the sequel, but I think my intrigue is outweighing my dislike of Cardan. I’m just really interested to see what Holly Black plans to do with his character, and of course, see where she will take the story next.


Royal Bastards (Royal Bastards #1) by Andrew Shvarts
Publisher: Disney-Hyperion
Released: May 30th 2017
My Rating: 3 stars out of 5
Find it on Goodreads
Being a bastard blows. Tilla would know. Her father, Lord Kent of the Western Province, loved her as a child, but cast her aside as soon as he had trueborn children.

At sixteen, Tilla spends her days exploring long-forgotten tunnels beneath the castle with her stablehand half brother, Jax, and her nights drinking with the servants, passing out on Jax’s floor while her castle bedroom collects dust. Tilla secretly longs to sit by her father’s side, resplendent in a sparkling gown, enjoying feasts with the rest of the family. Instead, she sits with the other bastards, like Miles of House Hampstedt, an awkward scholar who’s been in love with Tilla since they were children.


Then, at a feast honoring the visiting princess Lyriana, the royal shocks everyone by choosing to sit at the Bastards’ Table. Before she knows it, Tilla is leading the sheltered princess on a late-night escapade. Along with Jax, Miles, and fellow bastard Zell, a Zitochi warrior from the north, they stumble upon a crime they were never meant to witness.


Rebellion is brewing in the west, and a brutal coup leaves Lyriana’s uncle, the Royal Archmagus, dead—with Lyriana next on the list. The group flees for their lives, relentlessly pursued by murderous mercenaries; their own parents have put a price on their heads to prevent the king and his powerful Royal Mages from discovering their treachery.


The bastards band together, realizing they alone have the power to prevent a civil war that will tear their kingdom apart—if they can warn the king in time. And if they can survive the journey...
(from Goodreads)

Most of my notes for this book consist of variations of the phrase “ugh, Miles” so from that, it’s probably pretty obvious that Miles was my least favourite character.

Moving swiftly on, I actually quite enjoyed this book. I do agree with others who have said that the modern language used was strange and jarring in this setting, but I kind of got used to it in the end, even if it didn’t make much sense.

I really liked Tilla and didn’t find it hard to sympathise with her situation. Her father was, err, not the best of men, but I could understand why she still felt this need to be loyal to him (even when he totally did not deserve it).

There were parts that were a bit too unbelievable to be anything other than an obvious way increase tension and drive the plot into a certain direction (cough Tilla you couldn’t have just gone to a less public place cough) but the overall storyline kept me engaged and I’ll be picking up the sequel to find out what’s in store for these characters.

Sunday, 22 April 2018

Review: There's Someone Inside Your House by Stephanie Perkins

There's Someone Inside Your House by Stephanie Perkins
Publisher: Pan Macmillan
Released: 5th October 2017
My Rating: 2 stars out of 5
Find it on Goodreads
Love hurts...

Makani Young thought she'd left her dark past behind her in Hawaii, settling in with her grandmother in landlocked Nebraska. She's found new friends and has even started to fall for mysterious outsider Ollie Larsson. But her past isn't far behind.

Then, one by one, the students of Osborne Hugh begin to die in a series of gruesome murders, each with increasingly grotesque flair. As the terror grows closer and her feelings for Ollie intensify, Makani is forced to confront her own dark secrets.
(from Goodreads)

I loved Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins so when I found out she was writing a YA horror novel, I was a bit confused but also pretty intrigued. Being a squeamish scaredy cat who hides behind pillows whenever scary movies are on, I’m not usually one for horror, but I thought I’d give it a go since it was Stephanie Perkins and I’d liked her writing style before.

Unfortunately, I was pretty disappointed with this book. It was just a bit all over the place, but I think my main issue was that I didn’t really connect to any of the characters. For me, characters are the most important part of a book, and I felt like we didn’t really know anything about them.

Makani was our protagonist, and while I think she had great potential, I feel like her character wasn’t really explored as much as it could have been. For example, Makani kept mentioning how her parents hated her or didn’t care about her, which could have been really interesting to delve into deeper. However, nothing more was really said about it. We never found out why Makani’s parents felt this why, we never really got an insight into how this treatment made Makani feel - I mean, why bother mentioning it if it’s never going to be explored? Similarly, this “terrible secret” Makani seemed to have again had no point - it didn’t really tie in with the story and then when we found out what the secret was, I was more underwhelmed than anything else.

Ollie, the love interest, was a bit boring to be honest. I didn’t get why Makani liked him. I understand this book was inspired by teen slasher movies, which aren’t known for their character development, but I just didn’t care for their relationship and was skipping past the romance scenes. Honestly, I’m all for romance usually, but I guess I was expecting less romance, and a bit more tension and suspense.

I did like how diverse this book was and it was quite funny at times, but overall, the characters were lacklustre, and it wasn’t really scary. The murders were somewhat gruesome, but because none of the characters (especially the side characters) were very fleshed out, there was no real tension when someone died. The killer was also pretty disappointing - I won’t reveal who it was, but in the end, I still couldn’t understand their motive.

Overall, I didn’t much enjoy this book. I’ll still read whatever Perkins writes next, but I’ll try to avoid having such high expectations.

Thursday, 8 March 2018

Review: The City of Brass by S. A. Chakraborty

The City of Brass (The Daevabad Trilogy #1) by S. A. Chakraborty
Publisher: Harper Voyager
Released: 8th March 2018
My Rating: 4.25 stars out 5
Find it on Goodreads
Nahri has never believed in magic. Certainly, she has power; on the streets of 18th century Cairo, she’s a con woman of unsurpassed talent. But she knows better than anyone that the trade she uses to get by—palm readings, zars, healings—are all tricks, sleights of hand, learned skills; a means to the delightful end of swindling Ottoman nobles.

But when Nahri accidentally summons an equally sly, darkly mysterious djinn warrior to her side during one of her cons, she’s forced to accept that the magical world she thought only existed in childhood stories is real. For the warrior tells her a new tale: across hot, windswept sands teeming with creatures of fire, and rivers where the mythical marid sleep; past ruins of once-magnificent human metropolises, and mountains where the circling hawks are not what they seem, lies Daevabad, the legendary city of brass, a city to which Nahri is irrevocably bound.

In that city, behind gilded brass walls laced with enchantments, behind the six gates of the six djinn tribes, old resentments are simmering. And when Nahri decides to enter this world, she learns that true power is fierce and brutal. That magic cannot shield her from the dangerous web of court politics. That even the cleverest of schemes can have deadly consequences.

After all, there is a reason they say be careful what you wish for... (from Goodreads)

The City of Brass was a fantastic start to a new series. Hats off to S. A. Chakraborty, I haven’t been this excited about a new series in a while!

So first of all, let’s talk about the setting. This was world building at its finest. I could so easily picture the streets Nahri walked through in Cairo, the sand-filled desert as she and Dara made their way to Daevabad, the library she and Ali frequented, the clothes, the food – everything. I loved exploring the world and all of the rich details, and honestly, one of the reasons I’m looking forward to the sequel is to get back to it and explore more of Daevabad.

Speaking of Nahri, her chapters were my favourite. I loved how sceptical of everything she was; she’d had a hard life, and didn’t trust very many people. She was a top-notch thief and con artist, and used to living life looking out for a gullible mark. Even when she was exposed to a completely different, much more luxurious environment, she didn’t lose her shrewdness or her pragmatism and that’s what made her such a stand out character in my opinion. I also really liked seeing Nahri use her healing powers and discovering her limitations, and I’m excited to find out more her abilities in book two.

Dara…I had many opinions about. I was just intrigued by his background; he kept revealing tiny bits of his (very long) history to Nahri but there was so much more he was hiding, which Nahri could tell and frequently argued with him about. At the same time, she didn’t push hard on the topics she knew would be contentious; it’s almost like she didn’t want to know certain things. Their relationship was so complex and only got more so as they settled in Daevabad and it was interesting to see how the dynamic between them changed as time went on.

Ali was another character I had many feelings about. He had very strong beliefs on his family, his history and how Daevabad should be governed – he and Dara were total opposites in their beliefs but both were strangely drawn to Nahri who was a sort of neutral ground. At first I found his chapters a bit less exciting then Nahri’s, and was in more of a rush to get through them. When their storylines joined up, however, his POV grew on me and I became a lot more interested in his struggles and seeing what decisions he would make.

In terms of pacing, the first half of this book was a little slow, but once we got to Daevabad, things really started to pick up. This was also quite a character-driven book, which meant parts of the plot were a bit obvious at times, though the characters were so enjoyable that this didn’t really bother me, and there were still a lot of great revelations and reveals that I’m sure will continue in the next book. One of my favourite parts of the book was definitely learning about djinn and daevas and all the lore – it was nice that we got to learn alongside Nahri throughout. I also liked how much of a role the supporting characters played - there were no throwaway, there for the sake of it, characters, everyone was weaved really well into the story. And of course, the ending was as expected for a first book in a series – it definitely left me wanting more!

Overall, I really enjoyed this book and can’t wait for the next one!