Tuesday, 13 September 2016

Let me tell you what I wish I'd known...

...when I was young and dreamed of glory, you have no control, who lives, who dies, who tells your story?

One day, I will stop with the Hamilton references. But not this day.

(Yeah, I slipped a Lord of the Rings reference in there too, I have a problem.)

But seriously. There's so much I wish I had known when I was younger. Like what A-levels to take, (oh man, if I could go back in time, I would change EVERYTHING) what university would really be like, why I should appreciate my clear skin and fast metabolism before it all turned to shit (oh, do I miss those days). I wish I had a better idea of what I wanted to do when I was younger. I chose my A-levels purely based on what I thought would look good when applying for unis, and I so wish I hadn't! I took History, English Literature and Government & Politics at A2, and Philosophy and Psychology at AS. If I had the knowledge I have now, I'd scrap all that, only keep Gov&Pol, take Maths and Physics at A2 instead, and do Drama at AS. Seriously, these qualifications determine where you go in life, so choose wisely (thought they've changed the A2, AS system recently, haven't they? Ugh, I'm so old now, I have no idea how it all works). Same with university. Pick a subject you actually like! And do more than just study. I wasted so many opportunities at university. Why on earth didn't I join more societies? There was so much to do! And so much of it was FREE! I mean, I'll never say that I DON'T love sitting in my room watching Netflix, but I could have done both. One of the main things I wish I had done is join the theatre/drama society. I was always absolutely rubbish at acting (that B in Drama GCSE perpetually dragging me down) but I did really enjoy it, and I was always too afraid to do anything drama-y at uni. Now thinking back though, surely someone would have let me be villager #2? Or background crowd member #7? Will I ever know? No.

We even had a food appreciation society. All they did was go to different places, eat the food, and judge it. The whole society was based on EATING FOOD. Could anything be more perfect?

Now that I'm working, I look back on all my days of freedom and all the time I wasted doing nothing and reminisce...ahh, youth. I miss being young and carefree and having the time to do whatever I wanted. These days, I alternate between spending my days reading, watching Netflix (and Amazon Prime, yay for Amazon finally fixing my account issue) and being in denial about my future and what I'm going to do with my life. Everything's fine. Nothing to worry about. It will all work itself out. There is no war in Ba Sing Se.

If you're starting out at uni, I have five main pieces advice that I wish someone had told me: 1) JOIN SOCIETIES, 2) actually try to make friends, they aren't going to fall into your lap no matter what anyone says, 3) for the love of God, budget! Do not end up living off noodles for a month because you spent all your money on something you'll never use, 4) if after a while, you still really don't like your course, see if it's possible switch, don't just suffer in silence, 5) apply for student loans way in advance, because something WILL go wrong. Most unreliable system ever.

While I'll always wish I had been better informed back then, I guess part of being an adult is learning to accept your mistakes. I can now look back at my A-level days and almost not cringe! Progress!

Monday, 5 September 2016

It's been 84 years...

Ahem. I am not gone. Honestly. I know I dropped off the grid for two months, but I blame work again. We have been so busy recently, and everyone has decided to leave/go on holiday at the same time! I'm currently covering for two people right now, and with Southern being the way it is (AKA the WORST TRAIN SERVICE EVER), I have been getting home at nearly 8pm several days a week. Seriously, I witnessed the "commuter hell" demonstration at Victoria station - and commuting really is hell with this shoddy service (my trains get cancelled at least twice a week, and don't get me started on the delays).

That being said, I am 12 books ahead of my Goodreads reading goal (I know right!) and I have even managed to leave the house on occasion to go do things (saw Star Trek Beyond which I was not impressed with - I just didn't believe the villain, what was motivating him really - it wasn't convincing) and Suicide Squad (it was not good, but it really wasn't that bad either! Margot Robbie clearly the highlight of the film). AND, the most shocking news, I spur of the moment decided to have my hair cut and I now have a full fringe (or bangs, if that's what you call it - though that is such a weird name).

Still obsessed with Hamilton (and I'm even going to see In the Heights this month - excitement!) and very excited for a few upcoming books (Empire of Storms, obviously, which is out TOMORROW, then Trouble Makes a Comeback by Stephanie Tromly which is my most anticipated book of the year, The Creeping Shadow by Jonathan Stroud, out next week, and Goldenhand by Garth Nix, because HOW long have we waited for a new Old Kingdom novel?!. I feel so old...).

My cousin also got his GCSE results back and got the exact same grades as me (different grades in certain subjects, but overall the same outcome). Clearly he is following in my footsteps. His next step is to have an existential crisis. Or, according to my brother, "adopt a fatalistic view of the world". Haha, you're so funny. I'm not fatalistic at all. I am full of positivity. I mean, okay, yes, death is inevitable, and really, there is no point to anything, and we should all just resign ourselves to a meaningless existence - oh.

And can we please talk about Bake Off? Last week's biscuit episode - the tension with those gingerbread structures. There's always one that collapses. Always. You can't use caramel to glue things together, people! It's too runny, unless you create the thickest concoction ever, in which case, it will take a hundred years to dry! Royal icing, go with royal icing. (I don't know why I'm saying this, I couldn't bake this stuff to save my life.)

Anyway, I digress. I will try to post more often. I have a review that will go up soon, and there are more things to come. A lot of it might consist of complaining about my train journey, or wondering why Amazon can't just fix my account issue so I can finally get Amazon Prime, or talking about Roger the Golden Bear who sits at my desk at work, so you know, if that's the type of riveting content that interests you, you're in for a treat.

Hope you're having a great week!

(Roger the Golden Bear is kind of cute though.)